Last Friday night was a mess.
A complete disaster.
9pm and what am I doing? I’m laying on the couch crying my eyes out. Feeling those familiar feelings overtake me again as I think to myself, “My gosh, I’m so tired of crying. I’m so tired of feeling down. No, really, is there something wrong with me?”
Tears come very frequently these days. Since 2017 has begun, they’ve been my confidant. No one knows my struggles like my tears do. No matter how hard I have been trying, it’s very rare that a day goes by and I’m without a wet face. My spiritual counselor suggested I go talk to my primary doctor or a psychiatrist to get started on a low does of anti-depressants. I made the appointment and it’s set for later this month.
I’ve also researched a natural supplement called Gaba and will purchase that along with chamomile/mint tea. I’m supposed to be lifting my mood so that we can re-evaluate some priorities in my life and also get more energy.
UPDATE: I have purchased Lavendar, Bergamot, and Ylang Ylang essential oil and some 100% pure Chamomile tea.